I've wanted to write a book for years. More specifically, I've wanted to write a book about my experiences of mental illness. So about five years ago, I started putting together a memoir, of everything I've been through living with Bipolar disorder. When it was finished, I sent it to a few publishers....but it wasn't [...]
Tag: mania
Hiding Behind A Smile
What do these photos say to you? You probably see a happy, smiling young person, enjoying life. The reality is I was ill in each of these photos. I'd either just had a diagnosis of bipolar, or was about to be diagnosed. You can't see it, but I was all over the place mentally - [...]
Managing Sleep
I know a ton of us, especially right now when we're under lockdown, are struggling to get a good night's kip. How can a lack of sleep affect us? I'll also look at some tips and advice that have helped me along the way. Why is sleep so important? Sleep refreshes us, it keeps us [...]
Bipolar Myths Debunked
People with Bipolar disorder are just moody There's an idea that bipolar disorder is just mood swings - something everybody has, so isn't a big deal. It is though, very different from everyday mood changes. The highs and lows are extreme and can feel like they come out of the blue, or there is no [...]
How to help someone before and during a manic episode
Make a Plan. Before an episode of mania starts, make a plan together. First off, they'll be more receptive to your ideas. They'll be more in control and be able to look objectively at previous episodes of mania. Decide together what will help them, and what support and help they want when they are seriously [...]
I’m Writing A Book!
Yep, the secret is out! I've been offered a publishing contract with Jessica Kingsley Publishers to write a book about bipolar disorder. The book is going to be a practical guide to bipolar disorder. I'll offer tips and advice on how to navigate daily life and how to manage symptoms. All of this will [...]
Bipolar and Credit Cards, Loans and Debt
Mania for me always leads to overspending. I'll spend an exorbitant amount of money on useless, meaningless stuff. Shoes, bags, clothes, collectible toys, lego figurines (yes, really), games consoles, hotel rooms - I could go on and on. I'm not a materialistic person by nature, but with mania I just can't help myself. It's an [...]
Why I’m anxious about seeing a Doctor
I've been putting off seeing my doctor for ages. Why? I'm afraid. Afraid that they won't be able to help me. That they'll fob me off with a 'just keep doing what you're doing' response. Anxious that they'll want to change my medication. Again. I've had a difficult year with medical professionals. Long story short, [...]
To My Online World, And How You’ve Helped Me Grow
TW: Suicidal ideation The period between 2003 - 2013 was a whirlwind of changes for me. The catalyst for these changes came from my online world. A place that held me safely in it’s hands. It was a place without judgement and a community full of compassionate individuals. I could feel the warmth and [...]
Yes, I Do Miss Being Manic
I find myself pining for the person I become when I'm manic. I've written before about how mania isn't always fun. I do miss it at times, no matter how many times I tell myself the negative aspects of it. Mania can be a mind blowing, euphoria filled trip. It's honestly better than any drug [...]
