How I’ve been stressed out and the effects on my body

  The last month has been incredibly stressful. The main reason for this has been that I found out that I'm not eligible for ESA (Employment Support Allowance) payments. Although I have been working for the past three years, I haven't accumulated enough National Insurance contributions. This is because I was on a zero hour [...]

How to deal with the “So what do you do?” question when you’re not working

You don't realise until you stop working how much small talk revolves around what you do. You're at a party (yes you can have a mental illness and still go to parties, but that's for another post) and you strike up a conversation with someone and the inevitable questions begin. They want to get to [...]

Why I shouldn’t be labelled as brave for speaking about my mental illness

Since my diagnosis of Bipolar in 2012, I've been open about it. Family and friends knew what I was struggling with from the very beginning. I'm glad I took this approach, it's meant the people that are supportive and open minded have stayed in my life, and we have grown closer. People that couldn't handle [...]

Anger and Bipolar

I have always had a temper. Except for the people closest to me, it's a side of me that I rarely show. One of the major problems I have when managing a manic episode is controlling my anger. I usually come across as calm and friendly; a level headed type with a gentle nature. When [...]

Mania is…

  Running into the garden armed with a super soaker and naked, shouting 'you little fucker' at a cat Screaming 'fuck you, you twat' at the top of my lungs at a bar manager. Refusing money to pay the heating bill when living in freezing temperatures. Laughing uncontrollably and jumping on the bed for no [...]